twenty-nine.

I’m turning twenty-nine tomorrow… and whew, what an almost-decade it has been.

It’s hard not to be a little nostalgic, for the good and bad.

In the last ten years –

I met my husband. I moved to one of the most beautiful places. I found the career of my dreams. I have the most amazing in-laws. Some of my best friends have been in my life over ten years. My brother and I are closer than ever. I’ve traveled more that I could have imagined.

But it wasn’t all so great either…

I got rejected from ~10 veterinary schools after three years of applying. It ultimately ended my goal of becoming a veterinarian. I ended a seven year relationship. One of my favorite human beings passed away from cancer. I was so socially uncomfortable and insecure for a long time. I was in such a strange, creepy relationship at one point. My parents fought so much, they threatened divorce.

And there’s so much more in between.

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What am I most proud of?

I’m proud of the person I’ve become. It took a lot of growing, and trust me, I am not one to ever pat myself on the back (ask Michael, he’s my personal hype man tbh because I usually won’t do it for myself.)

But I really am so thankful to be where I’m at now.

Through the years when life didn’t go as planned, I put my head down and kept moving forward even when I was deeply ashamed of myself to even look up at people. I’ve learned to be self-secure because I didn’t want to become dependent on someone else’s attention. I found the strength to be a little more vulnerable. I figured out how to see through someone’s bullshit and it’s helped to not let someone take advantage of me. I’ve maintained a humble mindset because you’ll never know what life will throw at you.

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I still have a lot of growing though.

Goals for the next few years?

Learn to forgive easier. Continue to be more and more vulnerable. Try not to let emotions take over when I need to think clearly, especially in disagreements. Be more present, and less in the future. Find more ways to be creative.

In the meantime, I’m just gonna take it one day at a time. 😌

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💙 I can’t even express the level of love and appreciation I have for this man. He has given me such a selfless, unwavering love even when I feel like I don’t deserve it. The strength and support he shows me is unmatched. Yeah… not ever letting this one go. 💙

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I’m going to end this lengthy-word-vomit-of-a-post on a simple, but probably my favorite quote ever.

Over the years I have learned that what is important in a dress is the woman who’s wearing it. YSL

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  1. Happy solar rotation anniversary! You are the kindest, sweetest, most incredible woman alive and those who are lucky to know and love you delight in your infectious smile and laughter. I. Am. HONORED. TO KNOW AND LOVE YOU. your continued perseverance and hard work has done you well, and through it all you never stopped being kind. You are a testament of all that is good and beautiful in this world and I LOVE you!

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    1. okay i’m not crying ur crying… ok maybe i am. 😭How did I get so lucky to have you in my life?? love YOU so so much and what you just wrote means the absolute world to me. thank you, love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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